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Saturday, September 18, 2010

Growing up is the scariest thing you can do.

Scarier than dying, typhoons, and even child bearing.
It's the best and worst thing anyone can possibly do.
I don't think I can be conventional, not yet anyway.
Secretly, we all dream of conforming though.
Don't lie to me, we all dreamt with our Easy-Bake's, and our cabbage patch babies -and we continue to.
With every drug you take, ever ounce of alcohol you swallow, every condom you unravel, and every cop that you outrun -you are secretly dreaming of a life, a child, a kitchen with granite countertops, a trampoline, a dog, a 2 car garage, and a bathroom with his/her sinks. I bet you get chills from just reading those words. two car garage. granite. stainless steel. hosta plants.
We all dream the same accented pillows, and scented candles dream. We're just looking for an excuse to change us. Rehab, college, family, and the most common -love.
That's growing up for you. We all want to, some of us never will though. It's not because they don't want to, they just haven't found a good excuse yet.


Friday, March 05, 2010

Love is shit.
I see clearly; I had a fucking epiphany.
We love who we love and that's it. There's no soulmate, and no person who can love you the best.
We just go through life making connections and the coincidence of love is just a plus.
But we have needs, and we need variety. People who find one person so early in their lives and try to make that work -they're not going to end up very happy.
Values always change. People always change. And love always changes.
I think we fall out of love with people regularily if they don't constantly remind us of why we loved them in the first place, and reliving those moments can get old.
Love is constantly questioned, and I don't think love is ever constant.
No one wants to admit that. No one wants to admit that they think they are falling out of love with someone, but deep down you know it.
You might love someone's success, or how they love you, but falling out of love is inevitable.
People that date when they're young and stay together for a long time, you're not fooling me.
Hormones are crazy in teenagers, and teenagers are indecisive, and confused.
No one stays in love with their first love/their high school sweetheart/their 'soul mate'
So, instead of trying to stay together, (even with the neglect, the fighting, the issues with friends/sex/partying/distance) don't do it.
Fighting can turn to beating, neglect can turn to drinking/drugs, and issues in general can turn to cheating.
Being young and in love is just a bad fucking idea, and be prepared.
Shit isn't going to work out, unless you like lying and having dependancy issues.
That's advice from my heart.


Thursday, February 25, 2010

I feel so repetitive

Someone make my decisions for me.
I feel like everyone is depending on me to do something different and it's driving me crazy.
I have no idea what to do.


Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit!

I have no idea what I'm going to do.
The future freaks me the fuck out.
I don't want this, but I don't know what I'd change exactly. College freaks me out, but not going to college freaks me out even more.
I like working, but I don't want to work my life away.
& I don't want to JUST settle down. FUCK THAT!
I will never settle, I could have a full time job and I still won't settle.
Staying with someone to get married, to have kids, to buy china dishes that match the carpet.
WHY DOES EVERYONE'S FUTURE INVOLVE A RELATIONSHIP?!
Why can't we be happy alone? Are we that insecure and boring that we NEED someone there to entertain us?

This isn't what I want? Is there another way?
UGH I'm not ready to be an adult yet.


Saturday, February 20, 2010

Relationships

Having a serious relationship (when you are young) is completely pointless!
You do not want the same things ever, and even if you do make it through all the fighting and arguing -you will not come out happy.
You can not be happy in life without experiencing lonlieness, in my opinion.
Having someone constantly in your life, doesn't let you experience time with yourself as a single person.
I used to think people that talked how I am talking now were just immature and cold. People who's relationships didn't work out so they think they can bash on other people. People who don't understand.
I understand, I have been there -and in the end, it is not worth it. I want people to see this before they throw everything away for someone. Nothing is worth throwing away your life, your future, your reputation, your morals.



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